In the shadows while others shine...

Today I feel just a shadow of myself...
Burning in despair...
Freezing in this agony of watching others succeed as the world seems to drag me down...
Everywhere I look someone is shining...
Leaving me in the darkness!
As they shut me out of their brightness...
My soul cries though my face fakes a smile...
Would some good news light me up?!...
Don't think so!!
A job won’t fall down from the sky...
At least for me...
Actually…It seems to be happening a lot these days…
Only won’t happen to me...!
I don't make friends with important people…

[Shame on me stupid girl!]

Nobody would find me a job...
And it seems to be worthless to try to find it myself…